The Skeleton's Affection

And when I finally found I could admit it to myself,
And when I knew then at last what I had kept back,
With what had lay hidden within my mind,
Without clarity but with trouble and confusion combined,
Forever knowing that realisation is a curse,
Coming out will make it that much worse,
Not controlling what I was born to become,
I lost the feeling of feeling numb,
With my honest heart I'll lie while I can,
But truth being truth does not follow a plan,
And what if fate brings me that penance,
Though it’s not my choice to love both woman and man,
At least I fell in acceptable romance,
Whether coincidence or chance,
I don't want to take life's offering hand,
I wish not to partake in accused sinner's dance.